Living In A Story And Artistic Exhaustion

Good morning, my dear reader!

Just yesterday, I made a video about my current feelings and thoughts. (You can watch it here)

Naturally, I wanted to write my thoughts as well, given that writing is the more powerful medium to me.

So, what’s going on?

Well, basically, there are these moments when I look at a story I’ve created and wonder, “Oh, I wish I could just jump into this story and live happily there.”

This feeling has gotten stronger because of different things in my life and all the stress that I feel almost every day. As a storyteller, I kind of start to envy the characters, seeing how their world works.

I guess it’s part of wanting to find peace and some form of clarity, but I’m not yet sure.

There’s also the exhaustion.

I’m not a marketer, not at all. I hate social media and the fact that every tutorial and “influencer” I’ve watched basically claims I must use sosial media and shove my work in front of every possible person in order to gain success.

I don’t want to do that.

I’m just a storyteller. I’m just a writer from Finland with big stories in making. I want to write short stories and talk about writing. I don’t want to become a “machine” who does exactly what would bring in the most readers.

This blog means the world to me. It’s like an extension of my thoughts, for here I can freely express my ideas and think about things.

But, of course, the fact that I put so much work into my blogs, Youtube channels, and books, yet I feel like nothing is really growing makes me kind of exhausted and unmotivated.

Nonetheless, I push forward because writing is what I love to do. I don’t want to do anything else.

I want to bring my fantasy world to life. I want to explore our darkest fears through stories that makes the reader’s skin crawl. I want to create love stories that makes us cry.

There are so many things I want to do, no matter what happens.

These are the things I’m going through right now. I recently renewed my blog’s subscription and actually got a better version, which allows me to put adds on my site and make it look better.

Do you like the current look of my site? Tell me your thoughts, for I’d be happy to hear your opinions!

Anyways, hopefully you’ll have a good and inspired day.

Till next time, my dear reader.

2 thoughts on “Living In A Story And Artistic Exhaustion

  1. Consistency is hard and completely exhausting. I have fallen off the wagon of writing time and time again. Keep going 🙂 Your readers are rooting for you.

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  2. It is. But in the end, when we just push through, we can reach what we want to reach.
    Hopefully, you’ll find yourself on track soon enough.
    Have an inspired day and thank you!

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