Greetings, my dear readers.
It has been a long long time since I last managed to publish a new article, but I’m glad to see you still reading my posts and finding enjoyment in them.
That said, I’ve now returned and I have a lot of things to share with you.
This post is more of a update about my life in general and will include a lot of things related to inspiration and writing. I hope you’ll find this interesting.
How Trials And Pain Build Character
My Experiences While Serving In The Finnish Defense Forces
I entered the mandatory service in 4.1.2021. I still remember the drive to Sodankylä, where my location of service was located. The drive was both anxious, but also excited.
I talked with my father about all the things that were awaiting for me. We laughed and I was happy that my mindset about the service had finally turned positive.
When I was younger, I was depressed and lonely. My attitude towards the world was hostile and this, of course, was seen from my attitude towards the mandatory service.
I tried to find an escape from it, for I was afraid of being among the other recruits, among people, among the judges.
But the year before my service begun, I managed to make improvements to my mindset and I turned it around. No longer was I going to try finding an escape from the service, but I actually couldn’t wait to start.
I was going freely into the mandatory service.
So, I got to Sodankylä and I was introduced to the life of a soldier.
It was, to put it mildly, a culture shock to me. There was no freedom in the same sense as there is in civilian life, there was constantly something to do, and the hierarchy was strict and didn’t allow for any insubordination.
I wasn’t the one speaking against my officers, but as it is customary in the army, when one fellow refused to do what was told, the whole group was punished.
If I have to say one thing that I hated, that would be it, for my sense of justice was shattered. I always thought, everyone get what they deserve, yet I was punished all the same as the one doing the crime.
Well, it was part of life and I got used to it. Maybe the most important thing was to not take the shouting and the punishments as personal attacks, for it wasn’t personal. It was all directed to the group, not a particular person.
The Awakening of True P.B. Lindberg
One thing I soon noticed about the army, with all its hardness, was that it changed me extremely fast.
I was stuck in Sodankylä for two weeks straight before I got to go home for nine days.
The man who walked into Sodankylä and the man who returned to Rovaniemi wasn’t the same man.
The hateful, depressed, and anxious man was gone and he was replaced by the true me, a man who used his voice with confidence, who could talk to anyone, who went through pains and trials without letting out a cry of frustration.
I was changed, for the better.
I really couldn’t believe how I had changed, but I knew one thing: I was extremely thankful and happy.
The trials and pains had shattered the chains that had bonded me for years and for the first time in years, I felt like myself.
Overcoming those challenges and doing things well made me feel like I could actually achieve the things I decide to do. I felt like the strength that I had within me was finally waking up and flowing into my life.
Onward and Upward
I’ll return to the army tomorrow.
I’m excited, for there are so many exciting things to be done.
I cannot tell you what I’ll learn exactly or what role I’ve been given, but you can be sure that I’ll share my experiences with you, after I return.
God bless you, my friends.